My trustworthy friend

Fadznil is the most trustworthy friend I've ever had . I always tell him my secret or even ask for his help when I'm facing a trouble . Seriously , I need someone's advice if I'm in trouble . Hehe . I can't solve my problem on my own . My friends said that I am a strong person . Maybe yes but sometimes I feel like giving up . I give up on hope and life . I always think that no one cares for me . I'm the one who always take good care about other's feelings but how about me ? No one cares about me . Maybe I'm strong BUT  please don't do this to me .I'm human too . I have feelings . Okay , back to the root thing . About Fadznil , yes I admit that I love him . Not only as a friend but more than that . Maybe it is because we are being so close together . He told me his secret and I told him mine . I cook for him , look after his things and help him to get Fateen (his ex-girlfriend) back . huh~ I told him that I love him . embarrassing right ? haha ~ I know but that is the only way for me to chase away my special feeling towards him . I tried and it is kind of working but sometimes I get a little bit jealous if I see him with other girls . Yeah , it's stupid but I can't get rid of it . I tried and still trying . huh~ Whatever it is , he will always be my best buddy ever :D